Cuz it's been awhile.

~ My pup got neutered this past Wednesday. He's silly. The poor thing has got a cone on his head for 2 weeks. Don't worry. He can still eat, drink and surprisingly play. He'll be alright.


~ I saw someone take their last breath for the first time in my career. Of course she was hospice and all so it was expected but still. I can check that off my to do list. o_0


~ Nobody fed me corned beef and cabbage on St. Patrick's Day. I would've liked some very much. :( The way the Irish make it. I've never tried. It must be delicious!

~ So I'm not the only 21 yr old addicted to Neopets.

~ My classmate tells me to shut up 98% of the time. She's fuckin crazy.

~ The weather is an emotional rollercoaster. Spring needs to get serious.

~ Yesterday I'm not suppose to eat meat. So I went for sushi instead. Lord...no meat day never felt so good.

~Gotta go to school for more video validations for nursing skills. Will finish later.

Type love.

I found this again just now. I've heard it before, but it's different now. :)

Blame it on the rain.

It's cloudy and rainy today and I wish I could just melt back into bed and sleep the rest of the day but I have to head to class to face an exam I barely studied for...only because it never made sense to begin with. Gave me a headache trying to fit all the information in and sorting it out. It didn't make any sense. Our last lecture was snowed out so we never got to learn about it really...and here we are a week later to take a test on it. Isn't it great? Damn one day a week classes. You get screwed left and right with those kinds of things. Anyway. I don't want to go to class. I don't want to go to work. I want to find something more interesting to do. I'm starting to believe being all grown up and mature isn't very fun. It was better when I didn't have any responsibilities or commitments or obligations. I miss the old days when I was invited to random backyard barbeques with beer and getting stupid not worrying about work the next day or being picked up in fast cars to race around the highway in order to get to PA just to play with guns. Or dancing the night away in some no room for air sketchy club filled with soap bubbles they call foam that hurt incredibly when it made contact with my eye(s) and then realizing we missed the last bus home. Or late night drives with my best friend to a city I hate because her boyfriend is there and that guy I liked. Or packing our bags to head upstate for an entire week of snowboarding fun, which really meant one day of snowboarding and 6 days of partying.

But now here I am. Doing the same thing day after day. Week after week. And it's not enough for me. This whole facade of being happy and satisfied and content with my life isn't lasting as long as I hoped it would. I'm getting bored with all of it. I'm getting tired of looking at these same surroundings expecting something to be different one day when everyday is the same shit. I want to start another adventure. Another life...or at least go back to my old one.

There is one thing though that I don't want to change and I hope he never goes away because he's the best thing that has happened to me. He's the reason for me to be okay with what I do every day. <3

I'm waiting for a package. Right now it's in Louisville, KY. Hopefully it comes soon. I'm getting a new Flip Mino. The small user friendly camcorder. It's design is called Play It Louder with Kuromi from Sanrio. I thought all the designs out and figured this one to match me the most and I enjoy the white for extra room of personalization just in case. I can't wait for it to get here. Then maybe I'll purposefully head out to make good use of it. It sure is smaller than my Nikon D60 and much lighter. I'm planning on taking it with me everywhere for those damn I wish I had a camera moment because now...I'm gonna have one ! I'll tell you how it goes when I get it. =)


I wish summer was here already. Not because of the heat...because I hate the heat but because I feel freer then. Like a kid on summer vacation you know? Except I still have work and what not. Damn I wish I could've told my kid self to sl0w down and enjoy those days because they're not gonna last forever. Other adults told me...but at that age...what do they know right? But if the me now went to the me then...I think I'd listen. Then again how often to we really listen to ourselves anyway. I want to lay on the beach with a nice breeze blowing through and I want to hear the waves crashing against the shore and smell the sea mixed with sunblock. ... Or at least my days to get brighter.

Procrastinate now.

From the wise words of my absolute favorite comedian:

"Procrastination is not the problem. It is the solution. It is the universe's way of saying stop, slow down, you move too fast. Listen to the music. Whoa whoa, listen to the music. Because music makes the people come together, it makes the bourgeois and the rebel. So come on people now, smile on your brother, everybody try to love one another. Because what the world needs now is love, sweet love. And I know that love is a battlefield, but boogie on reggae woman because you're gonna make it after all. So celebrate good times, come on. I've gotta stop I've gotta come to my senses, I've been out riding fences for so long... oops I did it again... um... What I'm trying to say is, if you leave tonight and you don't remember anything else that I've said, leave here and remember this: Procrastinate now, don't put it off."

I live by these words ever since I heard them and possibly even before I heard them.

I'm horrible at being on a schedule. I figure I'll do what I need to do when I want to do it. Only problem is...that's not how the world works. Be here at this time. Finish this by this date. Eat at this moment. You have a test March 9th at exactly 6:10pm. Don't be late. -sigh-
What if I don't want to read 10 chapters before next Monday?? Damn straight. You have no choice. If anyone has a job where they set their own schedule please do let me know because...I'd love to find this new calling. But please let me know ahead of time because I have to pencil you in. Oh my what a schedule I have. I exaggerate of course but I'm sure the world has got their lives on a daily schedule down to the last minute. Like that guy in that movie. Stranger Than Fiction. You should watch it. I think it was pretty interesting. Disregarding the fact that I absolutely dislike Will Ferrell and all his stupid characters. I must say though he did a pretty good job on this one. It was a crazy concept...perhaps that's why Will Ferrell played a good Harold Crick. If you didn't see the movie, it's about this guy who, like I said before, has his life scheduled down to the minute and does the same thing day after day until one day he hears someone narrating his life. Only problem is, he's the only one who can hear it and she's plotting his death. So I'm not going to ruin the movie for you but it changes his life trying to look for this voice in his head.

See it's not healthy to live on schedule. Okay. I know...that had absolutely nothing to do with the movie nor does it mean if you live on a schedule someone's going to narrate your death. But still! For one day if we could just hop out of our damned closed in protective shells we call our lives maybe we'll find something new. Like you know those hermit crabs. Ok. Maybe that's a better example. Hermit crabs have to change their shells as they grow or else they'll die.....Wow..ok...once again. Death isn't literal. Maybe for the crabs.

Let me start over. In order for us to grow as people I think we need to change shells once in a while or else we'll die (not literally, metaphorically) like the hermit crabs. We'll lose all sense of our own personalities and die on the inside.

Sigh. Um. So yeah....procrastination.

I <3 kettlecorn!~

and sooo does BaaBaa. hehe!

This is BaaBaa.

This is BaaBaa.He's from Seaside Heights, NJ. I'd love to go there but it's a little too cold for that right now. It's been almost a year now since my boyfriend won BaaBaa for me in that awful claw game. We've gone to a lot of places together, but I think it's time for more adventures. I'm tired of staring at these four walls waiting for school or work. Even if it's just down the block or something. We'll find an adventure sooner or later. But for now I'll update you on where we have gone. Last September BaaBaa and I along with my mom, aunt, and cousin went on a European adventure. I was suppose to make a scrapbook about it but I never got the chance to and all the pictures and ticketstubs and what not are piled in the corner of my room.
Here are a few places BaaBaa and I went (I'll just show the major ones because there's A LOT) :

We traveled through (Rome, Pisa, Florence, Venice) Italy, (Paris, Lourdes) France, and (Barcelona, Madrid) Spain.

I think my favorite place was Florence, Italy because I had the most delicious ravioli dish and the shopping was great. =)
And Lourdes, France because it was nice and quiet. It was where St. Bernadette lived. I actually preferred it over Paris. Beautiful place. I woke up after the long train ride and we went across the street to our hotel. Then we had a yummy hot chocolate and croissant breakfast. It was perfect and the day looked like this:


I'll go back some day. But for now. Small trips to anywhere will do.

It was different when I was 5.

While I was digging through the snow with the help of my awesome boyfriend to unveil my poor defenseless car I came to the utter realization that....I don't like snow.

But it was different when I was 5 years old and then some, you know? I couldn't imagine a Christmas without that fresh white powder glistening in the morning when you look out the window and then rush to find wrapped presents under the tree. Or when you wake up one day and realize there's a good chance school is closed today because you know without snow...there'd be no snow day. Then it's time to double sock and bundle up because last one out is a butt. (Yeah. I think that's the most imaginative insult I could think of back then.) Snow angels. Snow ball fights. Sledding. Rolling around in snow for the hell of it. Snow caves during blizzards. I took a nap in one before while my parents shoveled.

Now...I'm 21. I haven't grown up completely. I mean I like looking out the window to see snow during Christmas or when I don't have class because of it. I just don't want to be outside when it happens. I don't like having to find my car under it. I don't like driving in it. I don't like when my boyfriend has to wait for the streets to get plowed before he sees me. I don't like when it gets matted on my jeans and I freeze in class even after it's melted because now it's just wet and cold. I don't have that want to play anymore. Sad isn't it?

Oh my!! Does that mean I'm getting old?! I've become so bitter towards playing in snow?! Sigh. I should get my boots on and run around outside with the puppy. This can't be happening. I have a theory. Maybe it's just because it's been a long winter and I'm just anxious for spring that's all.

Although...if I had a choice when moving I'd move somewhere forever Spring. Any suggestions?

Little Big Planet.

Who knew so much fun could come in a small plastic package. I loooooooooooooooove love this game. I'm not one with an amazing attention span either so that must say something. I usually sit there and play something then get bored and walk away but Little Big Planet definitely got my attention. It is by far the most enjoyable game I have personally played. Simple controls with a whole lot of creativity. A few levels are a bit disastrous for a 5 year old to play...or maybe I just suck at leaping through a herd of buffalo running through fire. Could be the latter, but nevertheless, this is a hazard to my school work. Teehee. Good thing it's in my boyfriend's possession and not mine or else I wouldn't even be here typing out this blog. I'm not obsessed. I just think that little sack boys and girls are great!!

Soooo. Bravo and a standing ovation from me to the creators of LittleBigPlanet. My inner child was thrilled and...so was I.