Twitter condensed me to 140 characters...

I just realized I used to write paragraphs and ever since I started using Twitter I've been condensed. Yes....like soup in a can. =/

Anyway...let's update:

Mini-mental note to self ~ If I ever end up like this picture here...God help me but I do share in her excitement. If that's excitement that is...or a nervous breakdown. o_0

I just finished level 2 of nursing and will be heading to level 3 (maternity/psych) in the spring. I can't believe we only have one more year to go. Time really does fly by. For now though I would like to enjoy my vacation. I have over eager friends though who seem to always want to get ahead...but really? That's not my kind of style. I live for the moment...haha. And at the moment we're on winter break til the 25th of January.

What's the point of stressing yourself out and trying to fit information in your head when the entire semester we were already burnt out. There's a reason they call it a vacation. They have kids and I think it's more important to spend this break with them instead of burying yourself in more unnecessary work. Have a weekend out to the park or something...or perhaps a zoo. I've always enjoyed zoos. My favorite part of the zoo were always the polar bears because those big oafs always looked light as air in the water.

Aside from nursing...I spent the last weekend with my pledge sisters of Sigma Psi Zeta in Boston, MA. I even saw that bridge there passing on the T. It was indeed beautiful. The first night I was there I threw my bags down and freshened up and headed to the bar next door. Joshua Tree on Commonwealth Ave was alright. Definitely a sports bar but nevertheless...delicious food. And then a few hours later we got ready to go out again. We went to Felt. Pretty sweet club scene. 4 floors. A different environment in each. Had a Long Island Ice Tea and a Grateful Dead...expensive but the amount of alcohol they added compared to the mix definitely made the $11 price tag for each worth it. (But it was still expensive...given it was a nice place so I'll excuse it). The DJ kept us dancing for the entire evening. No complaints there. Then again the people I was with had exceptional dance skills to begin with. Amazing group and very fun bunch. We then headed to Chau Chow after...drunk and absolutely not hungry but we went anyway. Food was pretty good I guess...didn't taste anything special. Cops were watching our every move because we were a loud big group of sweaty drunks.

Finally we headed back to the apt @ 4am, crashed and didn't get up til 12pm. More of my pledge sisters showed up. What a wonderful reunion. We went to the Vietnamese restaurant, Le's, and I had my first durian shake. Freakin' YUM. And my food was also delicious. I'd definitely go back there. After that we headed to the Galleria Mall to do a little shopping. The place was ridiculously packed. After an excellent purchase of a pair of gray boots we made reservations at Zocalo Cocina. The service was great. Food was delicious and so was the mango sangria. mMm. Fresh made guacamole at table side.

Theta Kappa class was almost complete that weekend. 6/7 pledge sisters. One of these days we will be 7/7 again. One was unfortunately sick with the stomach bug. But we did celebrate one being pregnant. It's been too long since we've been all in the same room together. Hopefully it'll happen again. There's nothing like the bond I have with these girls. Even a million miles away. ♥

Heading home.....was a bitch. 12/20/09 snow storm decided to come and Peter Pan and Greyhound and pretty much all of the buses cancelled their trips.

Fung Wah Bus saved the day. Chinese don't stop for nothing!!!! Thank goodness it took me to Chinatown and then I navigated my way home. Home sweet home.




....Partying is lots of fun, but it's once in a while fun. I prefer my quiet lifestyle with the love of my life. ♥

Doesn't mean I'm not gonna have fun. It is my winter break after all. ;)

It's been 1 yr and 11 months...

Hah. I guess I really don't have the time to write in here as much as I used to. 2 months passed like days and it's almost a brand new year.

Oh where did all the time go?

Thank goodness I'm on winter break. Maybe I can take a minute or two to slow down and actually enjoy this snow outside...or not. ;)



I miss small point and click cameras where I can take a snapshot of a candid moment I might not remember a little ways down the road. I think I'm gonna have to get me one of those...

... but which?

It's been 1 yr and 9 months...

And I love you for every single day since the first and will continue to love you til our last. .. and then some. ;P

PS.... we need a new picture. o_0

Colorgenics results

Name: Razel
Date: 10/19/2009
Colorgenics Number: 15230476

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You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

Although you are, deep down, a very caring person, you are very particular in the choice of friends and indeed very demanding at times. You can be most quarrelsome and controversial and it is because of this argumentative trait you can at times explode into open conflict - conflict with even those you may care for and love. It is because of this inherent argumentative streak in you that may have resulted in broken hopes and dreams.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

Shaking from the caffeine.

I haven't written anything in a long time because all in all my life is simple, boring, monotone and lifeless. But nevertheless I enjoy living it.

I was going through my facebook recently and realized that everyone around me seems to have fast forwarded their lives and landed somewhere with a reason. Maybe I just didn't get there yet but...seriously? Chicken shit. That's what I am. Leaps and bounds for all and I'm afraid to step out of the well beaten road. Too focused....not enough spontaneity. What happened to me? Mope. mope. mope.

And then it hit me. I am somewhere...it's just...not where they are, that's all. And on top of that, I haven't stopped moving. So I guess it's not all that bad and there's no need for me to rush because it's not like I'm at a stand still. If anything I can't sit still. Too much coffee in that cup. I have an exam in a few hours. I've been a busy bee to be honest. Nursing has got me around the leg. It's my ball and chains.

Although that little rant got me into a complete round about I did not leave it without some thought. I now have a few new goals in mind.

Onward march I say and I think I will continue to write in here more often.

It sure lets you have more words than Twitter haha.

Fish Wrangler

I want to go deep sea fishing and catch a fish taller than me so I could hold it up for a picture like a proud seasoned fishing veteran.

Lion Tamer

I want a pet a lion...or any wild cat for that matter, perhaps a kangaroo. I've always wanted to know what the wild felt like.

Light Chaser

I want to see the sky light up with color like as if God accidentally spilled his watercolor set and it drenched the sky. They call it the aurora borealis or northern lights, I call it beautiful.

Four-Leaf Forager

I want to find a four leaf clover...in Ireland. I hope to press it and keep it forever because it'll be my first four leaf clover...and I found it in Ireland! What a keepsake that would be, huh?

Whale Watcher

I want to see an orca jump out of the water next to the boat I'm standing on. So close it's like I could reach out and touch his fin to give him a flipper shake and say, "Well done, Mr. Orca, well done," and go on our separate ways.

Puddle Jumper

I want to buy yellow rain boots and jump in a rain puddle because I never had yellow rain boots and what else are you suppose to do with yellow rain boots except jump in rain puddles.

A classic moment.

I would like a tattoo based on this song. Perhaps and then perhaps. But for now. I am off to do nothing. It's a classic. Gotta love it. :)

I've become a MOH!

Ah. The first of the bunch to get a proposal. Haha and they predicted me to get married first. Tables have turned my love.

Congrats to my best friend on becoming a bride-to-be and who's the MOH (maid of honor for you unknowing folk)? If you haven't read the subject line yet....I AM!! I'm totally psyched. I'm the bride-to-be's right hand woah-man. The first in command (after the bride of course). The wing woman of the whole extravaganza. O0o0h the power of being the MOH. It's overwhelming. Carefully compacted in a simple three letter acronym. I can't wait to tell everyone what to do and end it with, "...because the bride-to-be said so!" Just so I don't look too bossy.

Have we made it this far already? We're done with Sweet 16s? No more uncomfortable dresses, uncomfortable partners, and even more uncomfortable dances? Sigh. It's all gone so fast. Oh wait...we're older now. Now, we call them weddings! Teehee. But...I enjoy weddings. :) Much more than Sweet 16s. They're cheesy. That's why I never had one.

Anyway. The wedding is way way later but we're starting the planning because....we want to. I remember talking about this in 8th grade with her. What we wanted. Where. When. What..ever. I'm sure not much has changed. Except for the reality of the situation. Something to tell us that it's not just a dream anymore because it's happening and they do come true. Dreams that is. So it's not wrong for young girls to picture that special day because sometimes it'll happen and they'll know exactly what they want and where it should be placed. Even the groom. :P

I can't wait! X) I'll update you later on the progress. :)

I know one thing..

that I love you. :)

Cuz it's been awhile.

~ My pup got neutered this past Wednesday. He's silly. The poor thing has got a cone on his head for 2 weeks. Don't worry. He can still eat, drink and surprisingly play. He'll be alright.


~ I saw someone take their last breath for the first time in my career. Of course she was hospice and all so it was expected but still. I can check that off my to do list. o_0


~ Nobody fed me corned beef and cabbage on St. Patrick's Day. I would've liked some very much. :( The way the Irish make it. I've never tried. It must be delicious!

~ So I'm not the only 21 yr old addicted to Neopets.

~ My classmate tells me to shut up 98% of the time. She's fuckin crazy.

~ The weather is an emotional rollercoaster. Spring needs to get serious.

~ Yesterday I'm not suppose to eat meat. So I went for sushi instead. Lord...no meat day never felt so good.

~Gotta go to school for more video validations for nursing skills. Will finish later.

Type love.

I found this again just now. I've heard it before, but it's different now. :)

Blame it on the rain.

It's cloudy and rainy today and I wish I could just melt back into bed and sleep the rest of the day but I have to head to class to face an exam I barely studied for...only because it never made sense to begin with. Gave me a headache trying to fit all the information in and sorting it out. It didn't make any sense. Our last lecture was snowed out so we never got to learn about it really...and here we are a week later to take a test on it. Isn't it great? Damn one day a week classes. You get screwed left and right with those kinds of things. Anyway. I don't want to go to class. I don't want to go to work. I want to find something more interesting to do. I'm starting to believe being all grown up and mature isn't very fun. It was better when I didn't have any responsibilities or commitments or obligations. I miss the old days when I was invited to random backyard barbeques with beer and getting stupid not worrying about work the next day or being picked up in fast cars to race around the highway in order to get to PA just to play with guns. Or dancing the night away in some no room for air sketchy club filled with soap bubbles they call foam that hurt incredibly when it made contact with my eye(s) and then realizing we missed the last bus home. Or late night drives with my best friend to a city I hate because her boyfriend is there and that guy I liked. Or packing our bags to head upstate for an entire week of snowboarding fun, which really meant one day of snowboarding and 6 days of partying.

But now here I am. Doing the same thing day after day. Week after week. And it's not enough for me. This whole facade of being happy and satisfied and content with my life isn't lasting as long as I hoped it would. I'm getting bored with all of it. I'm getting tired of looking at these same surroundings expecting something to be different one day when everyday is the same shit. I want to start another adventure. Another life...or at least go back to my old one.

There is one thing though that I don't want to change and I hope he never goes away because he's the best thing that has happened to me. He's the reason for me to be okay with what I do every day. <3

I'm waiting for a package. Right now it's in Louisville, KY. Hopefully it comes soon. I'm getting a new Flip Mino. The small user friendly camcorder. It's design is called Play It Louder with Kuromi from Sanrio. I thought all the designs out and figured this one to match me the most and I enjoy the white for extra room of personalization just in case. I can't wait for it to get here. Then maybe I'll purposefully head out to make good use of it. It sure is smaller than my Nikon D60 and much lighter. I'm planning on taking it with me everywhere for those damn I wish I had a camera moment because now...I'm gonna have one ! I'll tell you how it goes when I get it. =)


I wish summer was here already. Not because of the heat...because I hate the heat but because I feel freer then. Like a kid on summer vacation you know? Except I still have work and what not. Damn I wish I could've told my kid self to sl0w down and enjoy those days because they're not gonna last forever. Other adults told me...but at that age...what do they know right? But if the me now went to the me then...I think I'd listen. Then again how often to we really listen to ourselves anyway. I want to lay on the beach with a nice breeze blowing through and I want to hear the waves crashing against the shore and smell the sea mixed with sunblock. ... Or at least my days to get brighter.

Procrastinate now.

From the wise words of my absolute favorite comedian:

"Procrastination is not the problem. It is the solution. It is the universe's way of saying stop, slow down, you move too fast. Listen to the music. Whoa whoa, listen to the music. Because music makes the people come together, it makes the bourgeois and the rebel. So come on people now, smile on your brother, everybody try to love one another. Because what the world needs now is love, sweet love. And I know that love is a battlefield, but boogie on reggae woman because you're gonna make it after all. So celebrate good times, come on. I've gotta stop I've gotta come to my senses, I've been out riding fences for so long... oops I did it again... um... What I'm trying to say is, if you leave tonight and you don't remember anything else that I've said, leave here and remember this: Procrastinate now, don't put it off."

I live by these words ever since I heard them and possibly even before I heard them.

I'm horrible at being on a schedule. I figure I'll do what I need to do when I want to do it. Only problem is...that's not how the world works. Be here at this time. Finish this by this date. Eat at this moment. You have a test March 9th at exactly 6:10pm. Don't be late. -sigh-
What if I don't want to read 10 chapters before next Monday?? Damn straight. You have no choice. If anyone has a job where they set their own schedule please do let me know because...I'd love to find this new calling. But please let me know ahead of time because I have to pencil you in. Oh my what a schedule I have. I exaggerate of course but I'm sure the world has got their lives on a daily schedule down to the last minute. Like that guy in that movie. Stranger Than Fiction. You should watch it. I think it was pretty interesting. Disregarding the fact that I absolutely dislike Will Ferrell and all his stupid characters. I must say though he did a pretty good job on this one. It was a crazy concept...perhaps that's why Will Ferrell played a good Harold Crick. If you didn't see the movie, it's about this guy who, like I said before, has his life scheduled down to the minute and does the same thing day after day until one day he hears someone narrating his life. Only problem is, he's the only one who can hear it and she's plotting his death. So I'm not going to ruin the movie for you but it changes his life trying to look for this voice in his head.

See it's not healthy to live on schedule. Okay. I know...that had absolutely nothing to do with the movie nor does it mean if you live on a schedule someone's going to narrate your death. But still! For one day if we could just hop out of our damned closed in protective shells we call our lives maybe we'll find something new. Like you know those hermit crabs. Ok. Maybe that's a better example. Hermit crabs have to change their shells as they grow or else they'll die.....Wow..ok...once again. Death isn't literal. Maybe for the crabs.

Let me start over. In order for us to grow as people I think we need to change shells once in a while or else we'll die (not literally, metaphorically) like the hermit crabs. We'll lose all sense of our own personalities and die on the inside.

Sigh. Um. So yeah....procrastination.

I <3 kettlecorn!~

and sooo does BaaBaa. hehe!

This is BaaBaa.

This is BaaBaa.He's from Seaside Heights, NJ. I'd love to go there but it's a little too cold for that right now. It's been almost a year now since my boyfriend won BaaBaa for me in that awful claw game. We've gone to a lot of places together, but I think it's time for more adventures. I'm tired of staring at these four walls waiting for school or work. Even if it's just down the block or something. We'll find an adventure sooner or later. But for now I'll update you on where we have gone. Last September BaaBaa and I along with my mom, aunt, and cousin went on a European adventure. I was suppose to make a scrapbook about it but I never got the chance to and all the pictures and ticketstubs and what not are piled in the corner of my room.
Here are a few places BaaBaa and I went (I'll just show the major ones because there's A LOT) :

We traveled through (Rome, Pisa, Florence, Venice) Italy, (Paris, Lourdes) France, and (Barcelona, Madrid) Spain.

I think my favorite place was Florence, Italy because I had the most delicious ravioli dish and the shopping was great. =)
And Lourdes, France because it was nice and quiet. It was where St. Bernadette lived. I actually preferred it over Paris. Beautiful place. I woke up after the long train ride and we went across the street to our hotel. Then we had a yummy hot chocolate and croissant breakfast. It was perfect and the day looked like this:


I'll go back some day. But for now. Small trips to anywhere will do.

It was different when I was 5.

While I was digging through the snow with the help of my awesome boyfriend to unveil my poor defenseless car I came to the utter realization that....I don't like snow.

But it was different when I was 5 years old and then some, you know? I couldn't imagine a Christmas without that fresh white powder glistening in the morning when you look out the window and then rush to find wrapped presents under the tree. Or when you wake up one day and realize there's a good chance school is closed today because you know without snow...there'd be no snow day. Then it's time to double sock and bundle up because last one out is a butt. (Yeah. I think that's the most imaginative insult I could think of back then.) Snow angels. Snow ball fights. Sledding. Rolling around in snow for the hell of it. Snow caves during blizzards. I took a nap in one before while my parents shoveled.

Now...I'm 21. I haven't grown up completely. I mean I like looking out the window to see snow during Christmas or when I don't have class because of it. I just don't want to be outside when it happens. I don't like having to find my car under it. I don't like driving in it. I don't like when my boyfriend has to wait for the streets to get plowed before he sees me. I don't like when it gets matted on my jeans and I freeze in class even after it's melted because now it's just wet and cold. I don't have that want to play anymore. Sad isn't it?

Oh my!! Does that mean I'm getting old?! I've become so bitter towards playing in snow?! Sigh. I should get my boots on and run around outside with the puppy. This can't be happening. I have a theory. Maybe it's just because it's been a long winter and I'm just anxious for spring that's all.

Although...if I had a choice when moving I'd move somewhere forever Spring. Any suggestions?

Little Big Planet.

Who knew so much fun could come in a small plastic package. I loooooooooooooooove love this game. I'm not one with an amazing attention span either so that must say something. I usually sit there and play something then get bored and walk away but Little Big Planet definitely got my attention. It is by far the most enjoyable game I have personally played. Simple controls with a whole lot of creativity. A few levels are a bit disastrous for a 5 year old to play...or maybe I just suck at leaping through a herd of buffalo running through fire. Could be the latter, but nevertheless, this is a hazard to my school work. Teehee. Good thing it's in my boyfriend's possession and not mine or else I wouldn't even be here typing out this blog. I'm not obsessed. I just think that little sack boys and girls are great!!

Soooo. Bravo and a standing ovation from me to the creators of LittleBigPlanet. My inner child was thrilled and...so was I.